Like so many before
I asked, then pleaded, for another chance
“just tell me what …
NOTHING DOING : her mind is made up.
I felt like a teenager, to be expected I suppose,
I was 19.
I didn’t get it, like Sylvia’s Mother just wanted to talk to her
– “ not here.”
The sun was just leaving for the North,
as trees bronzed from green to empty, then green again,
I saw her everywhere,
even though I never once did.
19 turns 28
a lifetime between such brackets
she approaches me in a shopping mall
wants to talk, catch up,
I am visiting my parents: about to leave the country.
Should I have been more generous?
Sorry I said, one more day then I’m not here,
a lot to do. Maybe next time –
knowing a next time unlikely.
I was busy, but hindsight considers it a little ruthless,
thinks time could have been squeezed
been mindful of another time,
the time when I had wanted to talk.