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Exit

Antarctica, the old salts said was harder to get out of
than into
in the 1970’s and 80’s, fable was fact.
Many,
had always wanted to
yearned, ever since very young
thought it too good an opportunity to pass up.

The reality
was a three star prison
shared accommodation
institutional food
no privacy
very little opportunity for individuality 
restricted movement
permission required for most everything
mail : intermittent and non-priority
phone calls – weekly – 10 mins – booked in advance.

Dreams,
Yearnings,
opportunities –
palled.
Some coped
others moped
suck it up
if not, there were two ways out :

1)
medical diagnosed or self-inflicted –
tricky –
the authorities had seen almost everything before.

2)
an urgent phone call from home –
family illness or emotional crisis
intimacy requires presence. Now.
Difficult to disprove. Impossible to defeat,
just the ticket.

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B Grade

It was deflating and enraging.
Deflating the position clearly decided upon
deflating not to be given valid chance
deflating to have gone to the effort
deflating to recognise the call –
exchange of eye contact –
a decent interval of time has elapsed – terminate
and enraging,
the charade had the finesse of two six-year-olds making pancakes

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Come to think of it

Two weeks removed from teenage-hood
what the hell am I doing here
hell, irony –
when all the talk is about heaven,
the afterlife – is there? Perhaps Greg knows.
Outside
beatific sunshine
old brick and new pavers
I and two others from high school shake hands with his parents –
polite and formal – 
“ Oh yes, of course. Nice to see you. Thank you for coming.”

Slowly through stately and sedate avenues behind
the stately and sedate hearse,
to the motorway
and……
eight cylinders of chrome and Cadillac
becomes eight cylinders of flash and Cadillac
sheeeeyit
faaarrrrck
“well,”
shrugs the driver of the clapped-out Ford
“ did ya think there was a hearse lane.”