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Horizon

Friendship was almost a decade old
before we shared our dreams.
By then we had shared a house
tents, music, books and prejudices.
Chance broke the seal – an uncensored remark.

A ten day walk around an island
south of the world’s southernmost city.
A winter’s trip in the summer of our lives
expected beauty
and unexpected closeness – the perihelion of our friendship.
Conceived as distraction from careers
an opportunity to add to memory
what been a forgotten part of our country
before guidebooks and adventure tourists
turned wilderness into compulsion.

On the last day the circle is complete
a return to the starting point
finishing along a wind ruffled road
city reticence not yet reclaimed.

A sigh about returning to work
“ it means nothing to me.”
He is surprised. Me too – my employer highly regarded.
A pause
and “ you have someone to return to.”
It was his dream he said to have someone
to live in a loving partnership.
Unexpectedly he asked about mine.
to be a writer I confide.

When our dreams were visible
the comet of friendship had circled the sun.
Memory could plot its path
the eye could never find it.

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Dawned

For most of summer there is no sunrise in Antarctica
no banishing of dark
no painting of dawn.
At 4:15 am, the sky usually retina contracting bright
is bruised with cloud
razor blade grey – Soviet Berlin grim.

Quilted quiet is everywhere
the sleeping in dawn of a public holiday.
Routine talks loudly over whispers of uncertainty
anxiety is placed on standby.

In the mess hall, unfamiliar faces and urgent calm
a crime scene from which the body has been removed
alien and unmysterious
like a child knowing a never before tone
and as a parent begins  ….“Grandad …..”
comprehension just is.  And everything else appendix.
Cryptic military patois.
An aircraft incident
D59.
SAR.
Medevac.

Knowledge forms to shock. Explanation can wait.
A plane crash
two fatalities
emphasis on the first syllable – fate.

An army marches on its stomach
for now
breakfast must be served.
The queue is scanned for missing faces.
Later names are matched. I knew both.

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Promise

For almost 40 years since the war
the country had been ruled by men who had been to war
conservatives – left and right
unlisterners
know bests
who proclaimed democracy
but wished it wasn’t so democratic.

Fogged in monochromatic boredom
voters distal to war memory
yearned for colour
for divorce from grey besuited complacency.
He was the precisely what hope was seeking
someone with a mortgage
someone who understood hopes were not dreams
a plainsman who did burgers and beer – for enjoyment, not photo ops.

At town halls unfilled for decades
queues formed to hear the vision.
Inclusion.
Participation.
Equality.
The future could be now.
just reach out and touch the ballot box
election day and landslide to electorate euphoria.

Should outrage have been surprised
when the secret pact with monetarism was revealed?
Discretion often colludes with disclosure
interviewees do not expound weakness
or
sellers volunteer value lowering flaws.
The nation never quite forgave the consenting hypocrisy
more got over it
there was even clenched teeth acknowledgement
some reform was necessary and overdue.

The real victim wasn’t job loss
or stratospheric mortgage rates
or destruction of single industry small towns
it was optimism.
David Lange shared the stage with glittering hope
and dismembered his co-star so viscerally
no sequel was ever possible.