Posted in Before the Rain

Redaction

Perhaps Jesus is to blame
to blame for conversion been more esteemed than consistency.
Before his time the world was God fearing
conform ? – You bet, no one stepped out of line
not when the Angel of death was the enforcer.
Ever since the second testament hit the book stands
the faithful have clenched teeth
at
recaptured waistlines superior to the non-expanded
spendthrift turned thrift, better than always frugal
reformed alcoholism as proof of character.
Perhaps the devout felt the same
in the years 0- 33 AD
adulater’s
thieves
prostitutes and murders the new celebrities
and holier than thou. Literally.

He had been a gambler in his time
a card shark some said
playing with his own deck
marked –
and with at least as many Aces as sleeves
in the end he had turned up trumps
and now ran his own casino. Clean,
outlaw turned sheriff. Bandits, he could spot them.

The hierarchy was present
the brass heavy and shiny at his retirement –
the head serang
and his deputy
and more acolytes than a visiting head of state.
The not always good employee
had turned good
and done good.
The only person missing
his defeated rival
someone who had never been anything but good.
Conversion the spoils. Consistency nothing.

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Proxy

Auburn hair, not counterfeited from a bottle
natural creases of cascading ringlets
sparkling eyes, rescued waif smile
tight, short, shorts. Gypsy charm
and the perfume of availability. Perhaps.

Platters of small talk, individually presented
polished first lines, well timed extenders
generosity with conversation game time
and listening. Always willing to listen – talk.

The shine of gold and first love innocence
appeal to vicarious participation in her happiness.
Only here for the summer
work experience
study was finished.
“This was a lovely place – everybody so nice
she would love to stay
would be the happiest girl in the world if she could. If only she could.”

A diamond can cut in places
where steel is impotent
the glint of an idea.

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If You’re Good

Belonging and not belonging
being part of a team. And not –
a wrong side of town scholarship
most times included – sometimes not.
Equal and separate
different and alike.
Perhaps in the new year
baptism into permanent staff
will wash “might not” from my being.

Courage
comes like waves
catching a big one,
I ask Bryan.
Oh – that reminds him
he’s been meaning to show me –
a letter …
signed by the Associate Director “ of something.” – no 4 apparently
“God knows what they all do up there.”
It is a response.

The Associate Director “ of whatever it is he does” – no 4
thinks the best thing,
would be to transfer me to permanent staff –
1 March next year, when probation ends.
Christmas is four weeks away,
four weeks after Christmas,annual holidays are over,
four weeks after, four weeks after Christmas –
I should get my present –
memo to self be extra careful. Don’t do anything dumb.